I SABOTAGED EVERYTHING

Rejection is imminent;

I see it.

You see—

I'll end it before you can.

I'll ruin it

if I see the direction it's headed.

One excuse, and I'm out.

Love is the true essence of my being.

I put myself out there,

but I'll take it back.

Love is all around me;

a little bit of grace goes a long way.

You were the closest thing I had to it in a while.

The groveling decreased my value.

Champagne hangover,

wrestling with regret.

I tried to rise above,

but it was cheap heat.

I buried myself,

and the rejection was imminent.

I had to end it before you could—

I sabotaged it and ruined it all.

There's no paper trail,

not even a trace of you.

It's like it never happened.

Rejection was imminent,

that little voice in my head telling me.